Saturday, December 10, 2011

You Can Never Ask God For Too Much

I was talking to a friend today.  She never really asked the question, but I had a feeling that she was wondering if she was asking God for too much. 

I love to pray to God.   When I pray, I let God know all of my prayers, wishes and hopes.  You see...I know that my God is the God of more than enough.  I can never ask Him for too much.  The thought that I'm asking Him for too much is showing Him a lack of faith.  I believe that God loves when we come to Him.  He's our Father after all. 

Philippians 4:6 it says, Do not be anxious over anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication along with thanksgiving let your petitions be made known to God.

Saturday, December 3, 2011

God Knows The Secret Desires of Your Heart

My mother and I are still praying our agreement prayers.  I have a couple of prayers that I don't say out loud.  I have prayers that I share in confidence with God...these are the "Secret Desires of My Heart".

God and I have talked about one day bringing someone special into my life.  I have to say that I have not been good in choosing men.  I've had two long term relationships that both lasted about 4 years each.  I stayed a lot longer than I should have in both, but they gave me good lessons in life.

Now, I know I can't tell God what to do.  I know that I want whomever God will bless me with.  I just know that it doesn't hurt to let God know "The Secret Desires of Your Heart".  I know He's listening.  I know He will answer. 

I'm writing this, because I want you all to know that you don't have to let everyone know your prayers.  You can just share them with God, and He will answer.  I'll let you know how God answers this prayer. 

God bless everyone!!!!

Matthew 6:6

6 But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.

Saturday, November 26, 2011

God Will Never Give You More Than You Can Handle....Really?!?!

Today, I was thinking about the verse where God says that He will not give you more than you can handle.  The exact verse is the following:

1 Corinthians 10:13

13 No temptation[a] has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted[b] beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted,[c] he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.

There have been times in my life where I was so upset with God.  I would cry out and say, "You told me that You would not give me more that I can handle.  Why aren't You doing something?"  There were so many times when I would just cry.  I have to say that God did honor His word.  He took care of me and my mother.  He brought us jobs when we needed them.  I won't say that we didn't have our moments where we were terrified.  I won't say that we still don't have our challenges.  I can say that He always found a way for us to endure throughout our trials.

Keep the faith!!!!!

Sunday, November 13, 2011

God Never Promised That Things Would Be Easy...But He will Always Be With You

It's easy to say, "God why did You allow this or that to happen."  Isn't it?  Life can seem unfair most of the time and fair doesn't seem to come around that often.  I know I've asked God, "Why?" so many times.

This weekend, I went to get an oil change.  I noticed that my car was jumping a lot as I drove.  At times, I thought my car wouldn't go forward.  I was afraid that my transmission was going.  I was so scared.

Well...I got my oil change, and they told me I needed my radiator flushed as well.  It was an added expense, but I thought it was well worth it, because winter is just around the corner.  The guy who was working on my car asked me to look at something under my hood.  I have to admit that my heart sunk upon hearing this.  It turns out that my spark plugs were defective.  You could see a spark jumping back and forth between the wires.  This young guy who was working on my car took pity on me.  He drove me to the car parts store, where I was able to get his discount on the wires.  He then changed my wires for $15.  PRAISE THE LORD!!!

My point in sharing this with you is to show that God was with me.  I had someone to work on my car, and I was able to afford it.  This is a perfect example of how God never promised that things would be easy or that nothing bad would happen, but He did promise that He would be with you through your trials. 

Psalm 16:8 "I know the LORD is always with me. I will not be shaken, for he is right beside me."

Sunday, September 18, 2011

Life Is Full Of Challenges

Life is full of challenges.  I'm still grateful to be working, but it's so hard.  Being out of work for over 2 years has me realizing that I lost a lot of my skills. 

Some people say that nowadays people are in two categories...People who are trying to keep their job and People who are trying to find a job.  I have to admit that I'm scared.  I have got to keep this job.  I'm fortunate that my manager is the best.  I've learned so much.  I guess you could say that right now I'm going by faith.  I just have to do well in this job...and I know I will.  God brought this to me.  He will not let me down.

Guess what else I did today?  I paid my tithes again.  I'm just showing God that I believe that He will keep His word.  It's just another leap of faith that I'm taking. 

I'm learning that life is full of taking leaps of faith.  We just have to learn to trust God.  Let Him know when you're scared and feeling alone.  We are His children.  He will take care of us.

Right now, I'm agreeing in prayer with everyone that reads my posts.  I know a lot of you are praying for financial blessings, jobs, health, security and major blessings.  I'm here as a Prayer Warrior to let you know that I agree in prayer with you.  Remember what God said about agreeing in prayer:

Matthew 18:19 "Again, I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything you ask for, it will be done for you by my Father in heaven."

God is the only One I know who is guaranteed to keep His word.  Please share the blessings with me that God will be sending to you.

God bless everyone.

Psalm 121:7-8

The LORD will keep you from all harm— he will watch over your life; the LORD will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.

"Get ready for the goodness of God in a new way!!!!"~Joel Osteen

Sunday, August 28, 2011

God's Master Plan

I know it's been a long time, since I posted.  So many wonderful things have been happening in my life. 

First, I want to say "Praise God.  He is so wonderful!!!!  I love Him so much." 

If you've been reading my blog, you know that I was out of work for over 2 years.  I paid my tithes and not too long afterwards, I had a job offer.  PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!  It's in my field.  I'm paid more than my last job.  I love it.  GOD IS SO GOOD!!!!

I can't believe that I have a job.  I've completed my 4th week of work.  I have a wonderful manager.  I've learned so much from him.  It's been a while, since I've worked on some things.  I can't deny that I'm a little nervous about this job.  I have so much to learn and remember, but I'm enjoying all of this. 

It's so strange.  I was wondering what was taking God so long to find a job for me.  I had so many interviews and so much rejection.  It hurt.  I was terrified of becoming homeless.  I knew that I was not going to let my mother be put out on the streets.  I had an idea of emergency housing for her, but there weren't any options on housing for myself. 

Well, I realized that if God had given me one of the jobs that I interviewed for in the past...I would not have been ready.  I have a lot to learn.  This job is perfect for me.  They are allowing me to learn at a pace that is sufficient for me.  My manager is very visual, like myself, and he's taking things at a pace that I can keep up with.  God had a master plan.  I just had to wait on Him to show me.  I had to trust God. 

What I've learned is to trust in God.  I don't think I could ever not worry, but this experience has increased my faith in God. 

I guess I would say...stay in faith, God's Master Plan is better than you can imagine.  I can't wait to share more and more of what God has in store for me.

Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

Sunday, July 24, 2011

I Admit It...I'm Afraid

I started this blog, because I was afraid when I was laid off from my job.  It was taking me so long to find a job.  I was scared and crying out to God.  I wasn't sure what God had in store for me, but I felt that God had something wonderful in store for me.  The length of time it took to find this job tested my faith to the extreme.

Now, I have a job that I will be starting on August 1st.  I'm so scared.  I'm grateful...but I don't want to go.  I'm afraid of all of the responsibility that comes with this job.  I want to do my best, but I wonder if I can do this job.  I've been out of work for 2 years and a month.  I haven't used my skills in a long time.  Can I do this?  Is this the job for me? 

I'm starting a new journey.  I'm going to take this journey with God.  I know that I can trust God.  I know that as long as He is with me everything will be OK.  I guess this is where faith comes into play.

God bless.

2 Timothy 4:7

I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Praise The Lord!!!!! I Have A Job!!!!

PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  HE CAME THROUGH FOR MY FAMILY!!!!!!!!!!!!  I HAVE A JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's been a little over 2 years.  I was starting to feel like I was going to have to give up on my career.  I've been so depressed.  I didn't know what I was going to do.

I wrote a post about paying my tithes not too long ago.  I was testing God to see what He was going to do.  I have to admit that things did start to happen.  My mother and I received an increase in our food share.  We were approved for weatherization on our home.  Now, I have a job.  Is this a coincidence?  No...I don't think so.  I think that God not only passed, but He surpassed my test.  He brought me through this horrible time.

I have to admit that the devil has been in my head.  I've already thanked God for this new position, but I'm so scared.  I haven't told my best friends, because I can't help but to wonder if I will be able to do this job.  I haven't worked in a little over 2 years.  I'm so scared.  I want this to work out.  It has to work out. 

I'm going to continue to pray in agreement with my mother.  I'm continuing to have faith in God.  I know that God has some wonderful things in store for me and my family.  I have to continue to keep the faith...even when live is showing me differently.

Hebrews 11:1

Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Fully Relying on God

I wanted to give you an update on how things are going for me. Well...I had an interview on Wednesday. It seem to go fact, they called me back that very day for a second interview. I will be going back to interview with a couple of VPs on Monday. I'm trying to get excited, but I've had a lot of rejection. I need a job. I'm scared. All kinds of questions come into my head like "Can I do the job?" "Is this the job for me?” It's been a long time, since I've worked with some of the applications that they are working on. I just want to be the best and do the best.

A couple of days ago, my mother came into my room in tears. She stated, "We are barely making it." I told her that God would take care of us, and I know He's about to do something amazing. I have to admit that inside I wasn't really feeling what I was saying. I do believe that God is going to do some amazing things in our lives....but at times I'm Just not sure. My mother is scared that we could lose our home. I have to admit that I'm scared too. It would be just awful if this happened. I just don't know what to do.

My mother and I are still praying together and agreeing in prayer together. I never thought things would get this bad. I'm scared...although I won't let it show to my mother.

I'll let you all know how my interview goes on Monday. I've already prayed that if this is the job that God wants me to have, then I pray that it will happen, but I only want this if He wants this for me. It's a hard prayer to say when you need a job so desperately.

For I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you. (Isaiah 41:13)

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

I Believe A Change Is Coming.....

Let me start with a couple of positive things that have been happening in my life. First, my mother and I have been approved by an organization to have weatherization on our home. PRAISE THE LORD!!!! It's been so hard. We live in Wisconsin, and our home is old. Our gas and electric bill in the winter is so's overwhelming. They will be coming to our home to replace the windows, do duct work, possibly replace the refrigerator and a few other weatherization things around the house. I'm so grateful to God for this.

Finally, my mother has also bee approved for another organization for seniors that will do free repairs around the house. We are praying that they will paint the house and do a couple of other things. We don't know when these things will take place, but they have been approved.

Unfortunately, I still don't have a job. It makes things very difficult. I have a couple of calls about fact, I will be having a phone interview coming up soon. The position sounds great. I'm praying this is the one God wants me to have.

I had been debating on whether or not to pay my tithes again. At first, I was talking to God before all of these blessings, and I let Him know that I was disappointed. I didn't feel that I was seeing what His verse in the Bible states:

Malachi 3:10
10 Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, that there may be food in my house. Test me in this,” says the LORD Almighty, “and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that there will not be room enough to store it.

Now, I have to say that I do believe in this verse. I'm putting God to the test again. I've paid my tithes...even though I truly cannot afford to. I know that God is aware of my financial situation. I'm putting my faith in Him, and I'm believing that He will send out more blessings.

I can't wait to share what else God has in store for me and my family. Isn't God wonderful!!!!! Is this my season of change? Is this my season of favor? I'm hoping it is.

2 Timothy 4:7
I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.

Friday, June 24, 2011

Thanking God for His Blessing

My mother and I seem to be going through a trial that does not seem to end. We just found out that our monthly mortgage has gone up $200. We can't afford what we are paying now. This is a major blow to our faith. We just can't seem to catch a break...or so I thought.

For the first time in our lives, my mother and I had to receive food assistance. We've been receiving assistance for over a year now. It's a humbling experience. mother and I were only receiving $184 per month. As you can imagine, it's been a major struggle for the both of us. My unemployment ended in April. I found out that it would be ending on April Fool's Day to make matters worse. It broke my heart.

I informed food assistance that I would no longer be receiving unemployment back in April. Our food assistance didn't increase. We both thought this was strange, so I called them today. I told them about our situation. Guess what? The person on the phone knew someone my mother worked with. He stated that he had to help us. I stayed on the phone for over 2 hours. He finally told me that our food assistance amount would increase, plus he was making this retroactive. I was informed that we would be getting $999 in 24 hours, plus an additional $102. PRAISE THE LORD!!!!

My mother and I thought we wouldn't have anything for the 4th of July, but God had other plans. He gave us is favor and supernatural blessing. We are so grateful.

I'm taking this as a sign that this is only the beginning. God has amazing things in store for us. We just have to remain in faith.

Those who seek the Lord lack no good thing. (Psalm 34:10b)

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Testing God by Paying Tithes....

There's only one place in the Bible where God says we can test Him.

Malachi 3:10 "Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, that there may be food in my house. Test me in this," says the LORD Almighty, "and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that you will not have room enough for it."

I paid my tithe today. I am testing God. I haven't paid my tithes in a very long time. It's been on my mind a lot lately. I'm thinking that God has put this in my mind. Maybe God wants to see if I'm going to do this. I know I'm testing Him to see if He truly will " the floodgates of heaven..." I have to admit that I'm sort of excited to see what God has in store. What will He bring forth? I'm expecting amazing things from this. To me the opening of floodgates means that I'm going to be overwhelmed with blessings. I can't wait to share what the floodgates fo heaven will be for my family and I.


Saturday, June 4, 2011

God's blessings and signs....

Well...I do have a praise report. I have a job. It's a short-term position. It's for a really great company. They are very nice. The job isn't difficult. I'm so grateful for this. I have a feeling that this is only the beginning...but I'm still scared.

I had a very strange occurrence happen to me. Unfortunately, I can't share exactly what happened. I have a feeling that God wants me to keep this between the two of us, but I think I give you an idea of what happened.

I was going to the store for my mother. I stepped on the curb, and a note slipped under my foot. At first, I was going to just toss it, but something inside of me said that I needed to pick it up. I took this note home. I thought this would be a life changing experience. I was so excited. I just thought this was from God.

Sadly, the note didn't produce anything. I'm not sure of the meaning of this, but I just still feel like this was a sign from God. I shared this with my mother. She said that it may not have done what I thought it would, but it could be a sign of great things to come. I'm hoping and praying that she is right.

My mother and I are continuing to pray in agreement. We continue to say, "Something good is going to happen." I'm claiming this in the name of Jesus Christ.

Psalm 121:7-8The LORD will keep you from all harm— he will watch over your life; the LORD will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.

Saturday, May 14, 2011

I Just Don't Know....

I have to be honest. I really don't know what to say anymore. I've been praying in faith, although my faith has been as small as a mustard seed. I've been praying in agreement with my Mother, but we haven't seen any major results. I'm still believing, but I'm wondering if I'm just crazy or believing in the wrong things. I just don't know.

I look at the title of my blog, "Prayer, Faith & Spirituality Works", and I wonder if I have the wrong title. I'm wondering if I should have left the word "Works" off of the title. It's not that I don't believe that prayer, faith and spirituality works. I'm just not seeing prayer work the way I thought it would. Now, some would say that I have to rely on God for how He is and would answer my prayers. I totally agree on this. It's just that I thought leaving my prayers in God's hands would be more comforting.

Mahatma Gandhi says, "There is nothing that wastes the body like worry, and one who has any faith in God should be ashamed to worry about anything whatsoever”. I have to say that I have a lot to be ashamed about, because I can't seem to stop worrying about my situation. I'm scared.

I've been trying to find different things to be thankful for. God has given me this time off, which I'm grateful for. I have had interviews, which is more than a lot of people can say. I have a roof over my head, food in the fridge and good friends. I have a lot of people who are praying for me. There are so many people that would switch places with me in a minute.. I know I have things to be grateful for...I guess I just wish God would take on my worries for a while.

I'm going to continue to pray. I'm going to continue to have faith. I'm going to continue to believe. I know that God has great things ahead for my life. I just have to let go and let God. Right?

Philippians 4:6-7 Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Nothing Left But Faith!!!!!

It's been a while, since I've posted anything. I've had quite a few things happen to shake my faith.

Guess what? Within 72 hours, I was interviewed, hired and then let go after 4 hours on the job. I was told that the scope of the project changed, so they decided to go in another direction. I was devastated. It hurt so much. I could not understand why God would allow me to come so close, only to let me fall so far and hard.

I'm trying to count my blessings. I had a great Easter. We didn't have much, but it turned out to be more than enough. Praise God.

My mother and I are still praying in agreement. We are completely going by faith now that my unemployment benefits have ended. I've heard that when you are at your end, God shows up and shows out. I'm praying for His supernatural intervention. I hope I can bring good news to you all soon.

God bless.

Trust in the Lord and do good; so you will live in the land, and enjoy security. Take delight in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him, and he will act. Be still before the Lord, and wait patiently for him. (Psalm 37:3-5, 7a)

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Signs from God?!?!?!

I'm always looking for signs from God. It doesn't matter what it is, but I am on the constant look out for God.

Today, I wasn't feeling the faith. I applied for a position, and I received a phone call from the person in charge. I missed his initial phone call, but I was so excited, because he called me so quickly. I thought this was a "Sign from God". He finally got in touch with me on Friday. The first thing he said was, "Well first thing...I'm not hiring you for this position." He went on to explain that he was looking for someone more technical. He just wanted to know if I had any questions. I ended the conversation with a thank you, but I felt so depressed. I just knew this was the one God had for me.

Not too long ago, I was taking my mother to class. My mother was stressing about her course, and we looked up to see a Texas license plate. You may not know this, but my mother and I plan on moving to Texas. I thought this was a sign from God too.

Now, I'm feeling like a failure. Nighttime is the worst for me. I hear things like "You're a failure.", "You're never going to make it." "You're disgusting.", "You have two degrees, and you can't even make them work for you." I could go on and on.

Well, today my mother and I prayed that she would get an A on her Algebra exam. I prayed in agreement with her, but I really wasn't feeling the faith. Guess what? My mother got an A on her exam. I'm so proud of her, yet I'm scared to call this a sign from God. Is He letting us know that He is about to answer our prayers? Am I putting too much into looking at this as a sign? I just don't know.

I'm continuing to seek God. I'm going to continue to ask Him for answers to our prayers. I just wish I could be more positive to the wonderful people that are following my blog.

Please keep me in your prayers. I pray that I will have praises to post soon.

God bless.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. (Proverbs 3:5-6)

Friday, March 18, 2011

Do I Hear The Voice Of God????

I cannot deny that I'm feeling depressed. I can't deny that my faith is at a low. I can't deny that I have cried tears, because I feel like God has let me down.

I started this blog to help myself and others who are going through a hard time. I wanted to show how prayer, faith and spirituality works. I knew when I started this blog that I would have my trials. I guess I didn't think that things would get this bad...especially when I believed I had God on my side.

Now, it's 2:30 in the morning, and I feel really down. I have conflicting voices going on inside of me. One voice is telling me that everything is going to be OK. It's saying that I will have victory. The other voice is calling me a failure. It's saying that I'm disgusting.

People have told me that I should know that the positive voice is God and the negative voice is one I should never listen to. I'm just starting to wonder if I'm hearing God at all. Am I in denial? Is God really talking to me? Is He really telling me that everything is going to be OK? I really don't know.

My situation is dire. I haven't worked in almost 2 years. I don't know what to do. No one will hire me. I have two degrees, and I feel worthless. I feel like such a failure.

You may ask, "Why am I posting this?" I guess so everyone can see that they are not alone. I have my doubts too. I feel lost and alone too.

I wish I could say that I feel victory in my future. I can't. I wish I could say that my faith in God is stronger than ever....but it's not. I'm depressed. I'm scared. I don't know what to do. To sum things up...I would say I'm feeling hopeless.

Psalm 34:17-20 When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears and delivers them out of all their troubles. The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivers him out of them all. He keeps all his bones; not one of them is broken.

Jeremiah 29:11 ESV / 58 helpful votes
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Nothing Can Stop God's Will

Well...I had an interview on Tuesday. It seemed to go well, although, I don't feel like I won over the second interviewer. People continue to tell me that if it's truly God's will then nothing can stop me from getting this job. I know this is true.

I can't deny that deep down I'm so scared. I've cried out to God, and I believe I see signs that He is sending me to say that everything is going to work out. I was driving my mother to her class. She was praying to God, and I was talking to God in my head. Suddenly, we looked up and saw a Texas license plate. You may not know this, but I'm hoping to move to Texas soon with my mother. I see this as a clear sign from God, because it came just at a time when my mother and I needed one. PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!

Saturday, February 26, 2011

Praise Report!!!!! God Is Amazing!!!!!!

I wanted to share with everyone a blessing that my mother and I received. We are severely behind on our gas and electric bill. My mother and I have been praying to God for help. Guess what?!?! We received a letter today from an organization that helps with you gas and electric bill. They put a little over $200 towards the bill. PRAISE THE LORD!!!!! We really needed His help. My mother and I got on our knees and thanked God right away. I'm so grateful. I also thanked God for the blessings that are on the way.

When I started this blog, I told you all that I wanted to share my journey with you. I wanted you to see God's miracles in my life. I wanted to prove to you and myself that prayer does work. Here is one example of how prayer does work. God does answer prayers. A lot of the time, He doesn't answer the way you think He will, or the way that you hope that He will. That is what makes Him amazing.

There's more to come. I know it. I think the next blessing will be even bigger than this one. I can't wait to see what God has in store for my life.


Friday, February 25, 2011

God Spoke To Me Through A Dream

My mother hasn't been feeling well for a little while now. She's been feeling very tired. I have to admit that I was worried about her.

Well...One night I had a horrible dream. I dreamt that my mother passed away. I was at the cemetery with my Uncle who paid for her headstone. I woke up in the middle of the night, and I prayed and begged God not to take my mother away from me. I felt a horrible sense of dread inside of me. I woke up, and I checked on my mother. She was OK.

The next day my mother was yet again saying that she didn't feel well, and she needed to go to the doctor. I told my mother that she needed to make an appointment now to see her doctor. I tried to let her take the lead in the conversation, because I know my mother is a worrier. If I told her about my dream, she would panic, and her blood pressure would "sky rocket" out of control. I never let on that I was scared. She finally made a doctor's appointment. When she went in the doctor checked her blood pressure. He told her that she was a ticking time bomb. Her blood pressure was in the danger zone. He immediately changed her medication.

I'm thankful that God sent me this dream. I'm hoping and praying that this was a warning dream and not a dream of things to come. I cannot lose my mother, so please pray that my mother will get better. It's so strange. I'm so tired...yet I'm still not working. I'm feeling overwhelmed. Hearing that my mother was a "ticking time bomb" scared me...although, I did not let my mother know my fear.

I'm not sleeping well. I've been checking on her on and off daily, but I don't let her know how worried I really feel. I'm trying to keep things in perspective. God gave me a major blessing. He sent me a warning. He said, "Dawn...Your mother is sick. GET HER TO THE DOCTOR!!!!" That's how I'm interpreting the dream. Praise the Lord!!!!

I still believe that my best days are ahead of me. I believe that our prayers will be answered. I also believe that I'm going to have a praise report on a major change that is coming in my life. I won't deny that there are voices in my head saying, "Things are not going to work out. Look at where you are now. Things have not gotten better." I'm fighting this day and night. I'm scared. I'm scared for my mother. I'm scared for the both of us and our survival. I'm going to keep the faith. I'm going to continue to believe God's word. He will see me through this. This is a trial, and I will come out blessed.

James 1:12
Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him.

Monday, February 21, 2011

Are the blessings really on the way?????

Lately, I've been having a hard time sleeping. My mind is racing. I find myself crying out to God...praying that He will see us through this. I'm feeling my faith getting away from me.

On occasion, I will look back at some of my older posts, and I realize that I really haven't moved forward. I still have an excellent relationship with God. I can talk to Him about anything. I just cannot figure out why my prayers have not been answered. I'm conflicted about how my mother and I have been praying in agreement, but we haven't received answers to our major prayers. I cannot believe that I don't have a job. The bills have overwhelmed us. I need to be able to take care of my mother.

I have to admit that I do sometimes feel God telling me that everything will be OK. I know I've said this before, but I get these thoughts that I don't have to worry about anything. My thoughts tell me that I will be better of than I was before. I feel a major blessing is on the way. On the other hand, I wonder if I'm in denial of the situation. I don't have any career prospects, and I don't have a major money blessing coming to me. I'm scared.

Psalm 27:1 The LORD is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear? The LORD is the strength of my life; Of whom shall I be afraid?

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Trusting in God...

Well...I had my interview on Tuesday. It was a total waste of time. They scheduled the interview for an hour, they only talked with me for 15 minutes. Can you believe this? It was awful. I could have cried.

Prior to the interview, I had a bad feeling all day. Something kept telling me not to go to this interview. My instincts were totally right.

In all honesty, when they described the job, I knew it wasn't fit. There website stated that they were a small company. I didn't realize that it was a company of only 6 employees. It sounded like it would be a high stress position.

Sometimes I wonder why I continue to write this blog. I don't have the victories that I thought I would be having. The blessings that I truly believed I was going to have have not happened. Today, I prayed to God letting Him know that I just didn't know what to pray. I feel lost and confused.

Do you know what? I still feel like God is going to bless me. Although, I'm wondering if I'm just fooling myself. Am I in denial? There's one thing I'm not in denial about...I'm scared. I'm so scared. If God is allowing me to go through this to test my faith...well, He has accomplished it. I'm totally going by faith, but my faith is taking a beating. I'm just crying out to God that He will deliver me and my mother soon.

Trust in the Lord and do good; so you will live in the land, and enjoy security. Take delight in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him, and he will act. Be still before the Lord, and wait patiently for him. (Psalm 37:3-5, 7a)

Monday, February 7, 2011

I Just Keep Praying....

It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not fail you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed. (Deuteronomy 31:8)

Things are extremely hard for me and my mother now. We are still agreeing in prayer and going by faith in our daily lives, but we are scared. I've had a phone interview, and I have another interview on Tuesday (2/8/11). I have to admit that I don't know what to think anymore. At times I don't even know what to pray.

My mother and I have been praying and agreeing in prayer for a long time now. I really don't see the light at the end of the tunnel. I still have my ups and downs when dealing with my faith. I just wish that God would answer one of our major prayers. I know I can't tell God what to do. I just wish He would give us some kind of reassurance.

We have had a couple of blessings. One blessing was my mother's health insurance. I was so scared, because there was a mix up with her insurance. She wasn't able to get her prescriptions, and she wasn't able to go to the doctor. It took a month, but we found someone to leave a message with. She called my mother, and the problem was questions asked. PRAISE THE LORD!!!!! A second blessing came when we had a blizzard. My car was stuck, and I thought I would have to shovel it out by myself. PRAISE GOD!!!! My neighbors came to my rescue, and they shoveled me out of the snow. Another neighbor moved his car, so that I could park in front of my house.

I'm counting my blessings. I'm going by faith that God is working on miracles for us. There are even times when I feel that God is going to do some amazing things in my life. I admit that at times there is an overwhelming feeling that everything is going to be better than OK.

I'm going to continue to praise God. I'm going to continue to post my matter how small. God will see me through this.

Monday, January 24, 2011

The devil tried to knock me down, but God lifted me up....

I just had something interesting happen to me. I was starting to feel down. I was in the shower, and I started to cry out to God. All of a sudden, I slipped in the bathtub. Luckily, I didn't fall and hurt myself.

At first, I thought, "Great...Look at what I get for praying." I almost cried. I decided to look at this another way. I think the devil tried to knock me down, but God lifted me up.

I'm trying to look at things in a more positive way, instead of looking at my situation with a defeatest attitude. I'm going by faith that God tried to show me in that moment that He was there for me in that event, and He will uplift me in my current position. Things will work out. I just have to remain in faith.

Mark 10:46-52. "And they came to Jericho: and as he went out of Jericho with his disciples and a great number of people, blind Bartimaeus, the son of Timaeus, sat by the highway side begging. And when he heard that it was Jesus of Nazareth, he began to cry out, and say, Jesus, thou Son of David, have mercy on me. And many charged him that he should hold his peace: but he cried the more a great deal, Thou Son of David, have mercy on me. And Jesus stood still, and commanded him to be called. And they call the blind man, saying unto him, Be of good comfort, rise; he calleth thee. And he, casting away his garment, rose, and came to Jesus. And Jesus answered and said unto him, What wilt thou that I should do unto thee? The blind man said unto him, Lord, that I might receive my sight. And Jesus said unto him, Go thy way; thy faith hath made thee whole. And immediately he received his sight, and followed Jesus in the way. "

Monday, January 17, 2011

Faith At A Low

I had my over-the-phone interview on Friday, and it was the worst interview that I've ever had. At the end of the interview, one of the women said, "You haven't worked in over a year!!!!!" My unemployment became a reality to me then. My faith seemed to crash. I felt hopeless. I was so hurt.

I cried out to God. I have to admit that I feel different things. On the one hand, I feel like God is going to send amazing blessings my way. I think that when He does answer the prayers of me and my mother, we will be overwhelmed. On the other hand, I just feel lost. I'm feeling like our prayers aren't going anywhere or doing anything. I feel like the verses Matthew 18:19-20,

19 “Again, truly I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything they ask for, it will be done for them by my Father in heaven. 20 For where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them.”

is not working. I thought I would see miracles. I thought I would feel and see God's grace, favor and blessings. I thought I would be posting victories and blessings. I wanted to be able to tell the wonderful people that follow my blog that God answers, you just have to wait.

There are so many times when I was so sure God was going to answer my prayers. I felt that I could see victory right around the corner. I felt like God's blessings were within reach. I could see why God allowed me to go through this trial. I could see my visions become reality. Then...God did not answer my prayers. I did not have the victory I thought I would have. His blessings were not within my reach. The trials continue, and the visions were just visions. My reality is the same as it was at the beginning of starting this blog. My hopes continue to be dashed again and again. I'm scared.

I'm continuing to cry out to God. I go from specific prayers to just asking for God's guidance...His favor...His mercy...His blessings.

The bible verse Psalm 34:17 "The righteous cry out, and the LORD hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles.", seems to be so revealing. My mother and I pray in agreement, we cry out to God, yet He has not delivered us. My faith is at a low.

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Hopeful For Victories From God!!!!!

I found a quote today that fits my life. It states, "I hope life isn't a big joke, because I don't get it.~Jack Handey".
I'm continuing to stay in faith. I'm continuing to pray in agreement with my mother. The devil is really on the attack, but God is always there. For instance, my car would start on Monday, but when put in gear it would stop. Thankfully, God made a way for someone to come over and fix the problem. It cost...luckily, I did have the money, but I really could have used that money somewhere else. I still count my blessings.

I really thought that I would be posting more victories by now. I thought I would have some life changing things to posts. I just don't. I still don't have a job. I have had some inquiries, but I have not had one offer. Tomorrow (1/14/11), I have another interview. I'm praying that this is the one that God wants me to have.

You know what? God showed me that things could be worse. I called a friend who has used up her unemployment benefits, has a son living with her who disrespects, threatens and manipulates her, her kids won't help her, she doesn't have any marketable skills, and she doesn't have anyone who has her back. She also has various health issues, yet she remains faithful to God. She has her moments where she breaks down, but she still has an amazing spirit. So, if she can stay in faith, then I can and you can.

I just keep praying to God. I'm going to continue to pray in agreement with my mother. I'm determined that one day I will be able to post a major victory. As a matter of fact, I believe I'm going to post a major victory soon. I'm claiming this in the name of Jesus Christ.

Psalm 30:5 Weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.