Monday, January 24, 2011

The devil tried to knock me down, but God lifted me up....

I just had something interesting happen to me. I was starting to feel down. I was in the shower, and I started to cry out to God. All of a sudden, I slipped in the bathtub. Luckily, I didn't fall and hurt myself.

At first, I thought, "Great...Look at what I get for praying." I almost cried. I decided to look at this another way. I think the devil tried to knock me down, but God lifted me up.

I'm trying to look at things in a more positive way, instead of looking at my situation with a defeatest attitude. I'm going by faith that God tried to show me in that moment that He was there for me in that event, and He will uplift me in my current position. Things will work out. I just have to remain in faith.

Mark 10:46-52. "And they came to Jericho: and as he went out of Jericho with his disciples and a great number of people, blind Bartimaeus, the son of Timaeus, sat by the highway side begging. And when he heard that it was Jesus of Nazareth, he began to cry out, and say, Jesus, thou Son of David, have mercy on me. And many charged him that he should hold his peace: but he cried the more a great deal, Thou Son of David, have mercy on me. And Jesus stood still, and commanded him to be called. And they call the blind man, saying unto him, Be of good comfort, rise; he calleth thee. And he, casting away his garment, rose, and came to Jesus. And Jesus answered and said unto him, What wilt thou that I should do unto thee? The blind man said unto him, Lord, that I might receive my sight. And Jesus said unto him, Go thy way; thy faith hath made thee whole. And immediately he received his sight, and followed Jesus in the way. "

Monday, January 17, 2011

Faith At A Low

I had my over-the-phone interview on Friday, and it was the worst interview that I've ever had. At the end of the interview, one of the women said, "You haven't worked in over a year!!!!!" My unemployment became a reality to me then. My faith seemed to crash. I felt hopeless. I was so hurt.

I cried out to God. I have to admit that I feel different things. On the one hand, I feel like God is going to send amazing blessings my way. I think that when He does answer the prayers of me and my mother, we will be overwhelmed. On the other hand, I just feel lost. I'm feeling like our prayers aren't going anywhere or doing anything. I feel like the verses Matthew 18:19-20,

19 “Again, truly I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything they ask for, it will be done for them by my Father in heaven. 20 For where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them.”

is not working. I thought I would see miracles. I thought I would feel and see God's grace, favor and blessings. I thought I would be posting victories and blessings. I wanted to be able to tell the wonderful people that follow my blog that God answers, you just have to wait.

There are so many times when I was so sure God was going to answer my prayers. I felt that I could see victory right around the corner. I felt like God's blessings were within reach. I could see why God allowed me to go through this trial. I could see my visions become reality. Then...God did not answer my prayers. I did not have the victory I thought I would have. His blessings were not within my reach. The trials continue, and the visions were just visions. My reality is the same as it was at the beginning of starting this blog. My hopes continue to be dashed again and again. I'm scared.

I'm continuing to cry out to God. I go from specific prayers to just asking for God's guidance...His favor...His mercy...His blessings.

The bible verse Psalm 34:17 "The righteous cry out, and the LORD hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles.", seems to be so revealing. My mother and I pray in agreement, we cry out to God, yet He has not delivered us. My faith is at a low.

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Hopeful For Victories From God!!!!!

I found a quote today that fits my life. It states, "I hope life isn't a big joke, because I don't get it.~Jack Handey".
I'm continuing to stay in faith. I'm continuing to pray in agreement with my mother. The devil is really on the attack, but God is always there. For instance, my car would start on Monday, but when put in gear it would stop. Thankfully, God made a way for someone to come over and fix the problem. It cost...luckily, I did have the money, but I really could have used that money somewhere else. I still count my blessings.

I really thought that I would be posting more victories by now. I thought I would have some life changing things to posts. I just don't. I still don't have a job. I have had some inquiries, but I have not had one offer. Tomorrow (1/14/11), I have another interview. I'm praying that this is the one that God wants me to have.

You know what? God showed me that things could be worse. I called a friend who has used up her unemployment benefits, has a son living with her who disrespects, threatens and manipulates her, her kids won't help her, she doesn't have any marketable skills, and she doesn't have anyone who has her back. She also has various health issues, yet she remains faithful to God. She has her moments where she breaks down, but she still has an amazing spirit. So, if she can stay in faith, then I can and you can.

I just keep praying to God. I'm going to continue to pray in agreement with my mother. I'm determined that one day I will be able to post a major victory. As a matter of fact, I believe I'm going to post a major victory soon. I'm claiming this in the name of Jesus Christ.

Psalm 30:5 Weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.