Sunday, July 24, 2011

I Admit It...I'm Afraid

I started this blog, because I was afraid when I was laid off from my job.  It was taking me so long to find a job.  I was scared and crying out to God.  I wasn't sure what God had in store for me, but I felt that God had something wonderful in store for me.  The length of time it took to find this job tested my faith to the extreme.

Now, I have a job that I will be starting on August 1st.  I'm so scared.  I'm grateful...but I don't want to go.  I'm afraid of all of the responsibility that comes with this job.  I want to do my best, but I wonder if I can do this job.  I've been out of work for 2 years and a month.  I haven't used my skills in a long time.  Can I do this?  Is this the job for me? 

I'm starting a new journey.  I'm going to take this journey with God.  I know that I can trust God.  I know that as long as He is with me everything will be OK.  I guess this is where faith comes into play.

God bless.

2 Timothy 4:7

I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Praise The Lord!!!!! I Have A Job!!!!

PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  HE CAME THROUGH FOR MY FAMILY!!!!!!!!!!!!  I HAVE A JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's been a little over 2 years.  I was starting to feel like I was going to have to give up on my career.  I've been so depressed.  I didn't know what I was going to do.

I wrote a post about paying my tithes not too long ago.  I was testing God to see what He was going to do.  I have to admit that things did start to happen.  My mother and I received an increase in our food share.  We were approved for weatherization on our home.  Now, I have a job.  Is this a coincidence?  No...I don't think so.  I think that God not only passed, but He surpassed my test.  He brought me through this horrible time.

I have to admit that the devil has been in my head.  I've already thanked God for this new position, but I'm so scared.  I haven't told my best friends, because I can't help but to wonder if I will be able to do this job.  I haven't worked in a little over 2 years.  I'm so scared.  I want this to work out.  It has to work out. 

I'm going to continue to pray in agreement with my mother.  I'm continuing to have faith in God.  I know that God has some wonderful things in store for me and my family.  I have to continue to keep the faith...even when live is showing me differently.

Hebrews 11:1

Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Fully Relying on God

I wanted to give you an update on how things are going for me. Well...I had an interview on Wednesday. It seem to go fact, they called me back that very day for a second interview. I will be going back to interview with a couple of VPs on Monday. I'm trying to get excited, but I've had a lot of rejection. I need a job. I'm scared. All kinds of questions come into my head like "Can I do the job?" "Is this the job for me?” It's been a long time, since I've worked with some of the applications that they are working on. I just want to be the best and do the best.

A couple of days ago, my mother came into my room in tears. She stated, "We are barely making it." I told her that God would take care of us, and I know He's about to do something amazing. I have to admit that inside I wasn't really feeling what I was saying. I do believe that God is going to do some amazing things in our lives....but at times I'm Just not sure. My mother is scared that we could lose our home. I have to admit that I'm scared too. It would be just awful if this happened. I just don't know what to do.

My mother and I are still praying together and agreeing in prayer together. I never thought things would get this bad. I'm scared...although I won't let it show to my mother.

I'll let you all know how my interview goes on Monday. I've already prayed that if this is the job that God wants me to have, then I pray that it will happen, but I only want this if He wants this for me. It's a hard prayer to say when you need a job so desperately.

For I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you. (Isaiah 41:13)