Yesterday, I had weatherization people come to my home to start their process. I'm so grateful.
At the end of the day, one of the men noticed that the stopper on the sink was broken. I told him that I had the replacement parts, but I just hadn't felt motivated to fix it. He took time out of his schedule to fix the part for us. He had to cut part of the pipe. I never would have been able to do this. He stated, "You never know how God will bless you."
I have a feeling that God was sending me a message. "You never know how God will bless you." It gives me comfort. I think I was looking for a sign to know that God had not forgotten me. Times are hard. It does feel a little like God has me on the side. I'm going to count this as a message from God. I know He sees my struggle. I think He wants me to know that He hasn't given up on me. It's comforting.
All I can say, "Thank You God. I really needed Your reassurance."
Thursday, July 16, 2015
Wednesday, July 15, 2015
The devil is constantly on the attack. I've been blessed with free weatherization on my home. They will be giving me a new furnace, bathroom fan, dehumidifier and insulating my walls at no cost to me. I'm so grateful to God, but my heart is still heavy. I received a disconnection notice for my water. It's tough. I'm not really sure what to do, but I'm still trying to remain faithful.
Here's my prayer:
You said, Matthew 18:19 "Again, truly I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything they ask for, it will be done for them by my Father in heaven." My mother and I have been praying in agreement for a major money blessing, a good job for myself, husbands and to move out of our dangerous neighborhood for a long time. I know our time is not your time, but we truly believe that You will answer our prayers. God...Why is it taking so long? I've been unemployed since August 2014. Please help us.
You said, Luke 17:6 "He replied, "If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mulberry tree, 'Be uprooted and planted in the sea,' and it will obey you." Yes. My faith has it's ups and downs. There are times when doubt is shouting in my head. I'm still praying God. Why haven't you answered? I have to admit that I was expecting miracles. I don't lower my expectations of You, because You are God. I believe You will answer our prayers.
You said, Mathew 18:20 ""For where two or three have gathered together in My name, I am there in their midst." My mother and I cry out our hearts to You. We praise You for all of the good that You've done for us. I'm just wondering why the other prayers have not been answered?
God, I'm going to continue to have faith. Please help us. We need You.
Monday, July 13, 2015
My brother came into town this weekend. Life is good for him. He has a girlfriend, a job and a lot of friends. He said that he doesn't believe in God, but he believes in a higher power. We are both very different.
My brother was helping me in the attic move a few things. He overheard me say, "God is going to help us." My brother stated, "No He won't." I have to admit that it went to my core. I suddenly thought about my situation. I'm taking care of my mother. It's hard, but I know it's the right thing to do. I'm on my third layoff. I will be unemployed for a year in August. I have a couple of friends, but I'm alone a lot.
My brother's words keep going around and around in my head. I have been waiting a long time for certain prayers to be answered. I can't understand why God hasn't answered my prayers for a job. What does God want from me? I'm so confused....and tired.
God...I'm crying out to you. Please help me. In the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.
Saturday, July 4, 2015
I'm handling this layoff a bit differently. One of my best friends is the person that I would usually tell about my layoff. I decided not to tell her this time. I wanted to let God handle this situation, and I know if I tell her, we will talk about this constantly. I want this situation in God's hands.
To be honest with you, I'm so glad that I'm no longer employed at the company I was at. It was horrible. I've never seen people fired as much as I did with this position. I was constantly on edge about losing my job. I never want to be in that position again.
I have to admit that I'm scared. My mother and I have been praying in agreement, but our prayer for me to be employed has not been answered. I really thought I would have a job by now. I don't know what to do. I've run through my unemployment, and I'm not going through my savings.
I back to wondering about what did God mean when He stated that, "I also tell you this: If two of you agree here on earth concerning anything you ask, my Father in heaven will do it for you."
My mother and I have been praying certain prayer over and over again for years, but we aren't seeing results. Don't get me wrong. God has answered several prayers. I'm so grateful. I always thank Him. I just wonder about the big prayers that we are waiting for answers. I know that people say we have to be in agreement with Him, but I don't understand. The things that we've prayed in agreement about seem to be things that I believe God would want for us. How could He not want me to be employed?
I'm going to continue to pray in agreement. I hope that I can update you all soon with answers.