Well...For the first time in my life, my job is on the line. I've never had so many challenges on a job. It's hard and stressful. Every day, I feel like I'm going to lose my job. I was sitting at my desk yesterday, and I thought I was having a heart attack. My chest felt tight, and I could hardly breathe. I thought to myself, "I'm too young to feel this way!!!" Thinking of this job just sends my blood pressure skyward.
I can't believe my life is going in this direction. I know that no one's life is without challenges...but this is ridiculous. I'm starting to wonder if there really is such a thing as happiness. I know I experienced happiness when I was younger...but I feel like my adult life has been horrible. I feel like I may never experience happiness again until I die. It's scary and depressing.
I've always trusted in God. Now, I have to trust that He will take care of me until I find another job. God has never let me down, and I know He will not let me down now.
It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not fail you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed. (Deuteronomy 31:8)