Where Are You God?!?!

Wow...It's been a struggle with faith lately. There are times when I was so sure that I heard God, but I guess I've been hearing Him wrong.

I’m at a point in my prayer life where I don't know what to pray. I just don't know. I feel like I'm chasing after all of the wrong things, but I don't know what the right things are. Have you been there? I need God's guidance. I need to see Him working in my life.

I will say that I know that God has never left me, but I'm still asking for God to reveal Himself to me. I was trying to think of a word that would describe the way I feel, and I believe that discouraged would fit.

Joshua 1:9 "I command you, be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go".

Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans for you, says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope".

Faith Going Towards The Valley

I have to admit that my faith is going towards the valley. I talked to God yesterday to let Him know my concerns. My mother and I have been praying in agreement for a while now. We believed that God was going to work miracles in our lives.

Last night, my mother and I were getting ready to pray. She asked me if I've noticed any changes in my life, since we started praying in agreement? I could not bring myself to tell her no, so I answered by saying that God is working on something. In my heart, I have to say that I'm asking the same question.

I understand that God's time is not our time. I understand that God answers all prayers. I also understand that I have to have faith. Have you ever just wished that God would just speak to you? That's where I am at now.

I'm going to keep believing. I've heard that when you are down that when God starts working miracles. Well...I'm down.

Isaiah 30:19 "O people of Zion, who live in Jerusalem, you will weep no more. How gracious He will be when you cry for help. As soon as He hears, He will answer you."

2 Samuel 22:31 "God's way is perfect. All the Lord's promises prove true. He is a shield for all who look to Him for protection."

God...Why?!?!

Have you ever just wondered why God allows you to go through so many difficulties at once? Have you ever truly believed that God was going to answer your prayers in a particular way, only to find out that He did not. I'm going through this now.

I went on an interview with a company, and it seemed to go so well. I thought for sure that they would call me back for a second interview. On Monday, I received a phone, and I thought that this was God's answer. I found out that they were just calling me to thank me for coming in to the interview, but they decided to look at other candidates. I was heartbroken.

My faith plummeted. I prayed to God. At that moment, I had to let Him know that I didn't know what to pray. I was disappointed. I felt like I didn't have any direction. I did not know what to do.

I decided to call a friend. She told me that I had to praise my way out of this feeling. She told me that God will answer my prayers, but I have to continue to have faith.

Do you know what I had forgotten? The devil is a liar. I let him tell me that I was never going to get a job. I let him tell me that God was not going to answer my prayers. For a brief moment, I allowed him to win.

God never left me. If I'm honest with myself...I really didn't want this job. I knew it wasn't for me...but my desperate need for a job made me lose focus.

God is going to see me through these trials. I know He's going to honor His word. Praise the Lord!!!!

"I will never leave you nor forsake you." Hebrews 13:5

Waiting On God

Waiting on God is one of the most difficult challenges in life. We know that God can answer all prayers right away, so why doesn't He? Well, let me say that God is not our concierge God. He is our Father. He doesn't have to.

You know what I've found? God is always right on time. I have to be honest with you, God is taking a very long time answering me and my mother's prayers. My mother's faith has taken a big hit. Guess what? My faith has been fluctuating too. I did talk to God today. I told Him that I thought He would've answered at least one of my mother's and I prayers. Well, I think that I heard Him say, "It's coming!!!" Let me just say, "PRAISE THE LORD!!!!"

I know that waiting on God is hard. I always have to remember that God's time is not our time. I also remember that in the end, God's way is the best. Remember to keep the faith.

Matthew 17:20 He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."

The Ups & Downs of Faith

Well...My mother and I are continuing to pray in agreement. I've also started to fast. I'm trying to get closer to God and find His answers. I will say that I do feel closer to God, but the answers are not really coming. I spoke to God, and I asked why hasn't He answered the easy prayers. I feel like God is telling me, "All in good time." Well, I know we've all heard the saying, "God's time is not our time."

Right now, I'm just trying to find things to be thankful for. For example, I'm a part of an organization that helps Veterans. I was the only woman for a while. Recently, we added three other women to the organization. One of the women has her own business. She helps people find jobs, and she also mentors people. Surprisingly, a company that I've always wanted to work for has a job that fits me. I applied for the job, and I sent an email to everyone in the organization to see if they know someone at the company. This woman who is new to the organization replied to my email stating that she connected with her contacts to let them know I applied for a job with this company. PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!

I feel like God is teaching me patience. I think He's ready to answer our prayers, but He wants us rely on Him. God knows that we will have moments where we need reassurance, but there are times when we just have to know that God is handling everything. I believe that this is one of the times in my life that I just have to trust that God is in control.

‘Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’ Isaiah 41:10

Why are some prayers not answered?

One of the biggest questions people have is, "Why are some prayers not answered?" If you do a search on this question, you will find many websites dedicated to answering this question. There are some that believe that answers aren't forthcoming, because we haven't forgiven those that have wronged us. There are some that believe we aren't praying in accordance to God's will.

My answer to the question of "Why are some prayers not answered?" is that I don't believe that God doesn't answer prayers. I believe He answers all prayers....just not the way we always want Him to answer. I like to put a positive spin on things, so I know that there are times when God does say no to a prayer. I like to believe that God's no means that there is something better that He has in store.

I also know that our prayers aren't immediately answered. I truly believe that God allows you time before you receive His blessing to be prepared for what He has for you. Maybe you are praying for a husband or wife. Your prayer may not be answered immediately, because God wants you to mature before He blesses you with the spouse He has for you. Maybe you are praying for a money blessing. God could be putting things in place, so that you don't spend your money frivolously. We just have to go by faith and know that God has His reasons for not answering immediately.

Now, there are those wonderful, miraculous times when God answers our prayers immediately. We all love these moments in our lives. Feeling God's favor is the most amazing thing in the world. It's like God is giving you a hug.

I'm currently in the waiting period of getting my prayers answered. I'm hoping and praying that God will bring me and my mother a major money blessing. We are also hoping and praying for jobs...soon. It's a scary time for the both of us. We are facing trials that we never thought we would go through. I can't deny that my faith is taking a beating right now. I'm scared. My mother is scared, but we are learning to be thankful for the blessings that God has given us while we wait for God's answers...and I know He is going to amaze us with His answers. PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!

1 John 5:14-15 "This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask for anything according to His will, He hears us. And if we know that He hears us - whatever we ask - we know that we have what we ask of Him."

Matthew 18:19-20

Matthew 18:19-20 "Again, I tell you that if two of you agree about anything you ask for, it will be done for you by my Father in heaven. For where two or three come together in my name, there I am with them."






Well, my mother and I have started praying together. We used to just pray silently, now we speak our prayers out loud. I have to admit that I slowly see some changes. For instance, I have had about 5 over-the-phone interviews this month. I had one face-to-face interview this month. Unfortunately, nothing has come of these interviews, but I'm hopeful that I will have a job soon.

My mother, on the other hand, has found an organization that is helping her find a job. PRAISE THE LORD. This organization has set my mother up with "training" that is paid. They pay her for part-time work. She's found a resource that will allow us to talk to an attorney about paying our gas and electric bill for a small fee. This fee also will be paid by the organization my mother is in. The attorney can halt the gas/electric company from turning off our services. I'll let you know how this goes for us.

My mother and I are believing in Matthew 18:19-20. We are praying together and agreeing in prayer together. We believe that our prayers are more powerful based on Matthew 18:19-20. God has promised that if we follow this, He will answer our prayers. I have faith that God will honor His word, and I cannot wait to tell you the answers that He is going to provide for us.

PRAISE THE LORD!!!!! HE WILL PROVIDE!!!!!