Hopeful For Victories From God!!!!!

I found a quote today that fits my life. It states, "I hope life isn't a big joke, because I don't get it.~Jack Handey".

I'm continuing to stay in faith. I'm continuing to pray in agreement with my mother. The devil is really on the attack, but God is always there. For instance, my car would start on Monday, but when put in gear it would stop. Thankfully, God made a way for someone to come over and fix the problem. It cost...luckily, I did have the money, but I really could have used that money somewhere else. I still count my blessings.

I really thought that I would be posting more victories by now. I thought I would have some life changing things to posts. I just don't. I still don't have a job. I have had some inquiries, but I have not had one offer. Tomorrow (1/14/11), I have another interview. I'm praying that this is the one that God wants me to have.

You know what? God showed me that things could be worse. I called a friend who has used up her unemployment benefits, has a son living with her who disrespects, threatens and manipulates her, her kids won't help her, she doesn't have any marketable skills, and she doesn't have anyone who has her back. She also has various health issues, yet she remains faithful to God. She has her moments where she breaks down, but she still has an amazing spirit. So, if she can stay in faith, then I can and you can.

I just keep praying to God. I'm going to continue to pray in agreement with my mother. I'm determined that one day I will be able to post a major victory. As a matter of fact, I believe I'm going to post a major victory soon. I'm claiming this in the name of Jesus Christ.

Psalm 30:5 Weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.

God will see me through...

Thank you for your prayers. I have to say that I feel better today.

Upon reflection, I thought about some things that bothered me about the job. One...I asked my interviewer what happened to the previous person that held the position. She gave me a very blunt, "The person left." I asked for more information, and she again stated, "The person left." I admit that this bothered me, but I ignored this, because I really need a job.

The second thing that bothered me about this job was that in my final interview the woman described the department as being a "family environment". I've found in my past that "family environment" can mean anything from "The Cosby Show" to "The Sopranos". My experience has found that most are more like "The Sopranos", which means that they are very unprofessional.

Right now, I'm learning to go by faith. I'm blindly going into this situation not knowing how God is going to resolve all the problems....but I KNOW He is going to bring me out of this for the better. After all...That is how God works. PRAISE THE LORD!!!

Thank you for your prayers.

Well...I thought I would be posting a Praise Report. I hate to tell you that the news is very bad. Last month, I had two interviews with a company. I really thought I had the position. I was so happy. I praised God. I had visions of all of the things I wanted to do. I just knew this was from God. Today, I received the email stating that they hired someone else. I was heartbroken. I thought I was going to have a nervous breakdown. I cried and cried.

I don't know why God allowed me to come so far, only to let me down. I cried out to God. I asked Him why. I don't have any answers. I honestly don't know what direction God wants me to go in now. I feel numb.

I will be honest with you. I'm starting to question the verse, Matthew 18:19-20

19 “Again, truly I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything they ask for, it will be done for them by my Father in heaven. 20 For where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them.”

People have said that when you start praying in agreement, you will start seeing amazing things happen. I will admit that God has helped my family. I give Him all of the praises for these things. Unfortunately, the major prayers have not been answered. I thought I was going to have a job...this job. We've been praying for a major money blessing...nothing. We've been praying for help to move to Texas...nothing. We've been praying for spouses...nothing. We've been praying for money to fix up the house so that we can move...nothing. We've been praying for a new car for my mother...nothing. We've been praying for a garage...nothing.

I have to admit that my heart is heavy. I don't know what to do or think. I was feeling hopeful, but now I'm feeling hopeless.

I found this verse on hopelessness:

Psalm 34:17-20 "When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears and delivers them out of all their troubles. The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivers him out of them all. He keeps all his bones; not one of them is broken."

I wish I could end this on a positive note. I just can't.

Thank God for His Guidance...

Well...I had an interview that went extremely well on Thursday. If God wants me to have this job, I can see why He's chosen it for me. It wouldn't be too stressful. It would a more casual, professional type of environment that I would like. It would start off slow, so I would have time to learn their systems. I believe this would be an answer to my prayers. I think this would only be the beginning of God answering the prayers of me and my mother.

My mother and I have many prayers that we still are believing that God will answer. My mother is taking a leap of faith by returning to school with the hopes of entering into a different career. We still need a major money blessing that would allow us to fix our home, so that we can move to Texas. We have health issues. My mother needs a car. To be honest with you, we also need a nice long vacation after dealing with the challenges that my father put us through and left us with.

My mother and I thank God often. I would say that we thank God more than most. There are times when I thank Him even when He hasn't answered our prayers. I have to admit that I'm humbled by this experience. I never thought I would go through this kind of trial....and it's not over yet.

1 Peter 5:10 "And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you."

God Hears All Prayers....And Answers!!!!!!!

Well...I know it has been a while since I've posted. I can say that I have been praying and praying to God. My mother and I are still praying our agreement prayers.

I have to say that we did receive a major blessing. My mother and I were and are still having problems paying our bills. I've been on unemployment for over a year now. I'm terrified. I know that I cannot be on unemployment forever. Well...my mother and I applied for food assistance. We finally were approved this month. We found out that we received more money than we expected. PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!!!!!!!! We can now put the money that we would spend on food towards other bills.

I will admit that I did feel like a failure when my mother and I had to get food assistance. It was so embarrassing. I never thought that we would be in this position. It broke my heart. I wondered why would God allow us to go through this? Inside I keep screaming, "Why?"

Well...I had to learn to count my blessings. Initially I didn't see getting assistance with food as a blessing, but I had to realize that God did not promise that we would not have struggles and challenges. He did promise to be with us during these hard and difficult times. I now can look at getting assistance as one of God's first steps in helping us move forward. This was the major money blessing that my mother and I prayed for...just not the way we had hoped it would come to us.

I also have more phone calls for job interviews. I had a phone interview last week, a face-to-face interview and a phone call for a follow-up interview to a job that I really want. PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!! I truly believe I'm going to have a job soon. God is answering my prayers.

John 14:13-14
I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Son may bring glory to the Father. You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it

Being scared, but remaining faithful

Well...I wanted to give you an update on my status. I'm still looking for a job. I had two phone interviews yesterday (10/19). The first one seemed to go well, but I feel I didn't do well with the question on how I prioritize my job assignments. The second over the phone interviewer felt that I didn't have enough experience, but she stated that I should continue to look at their website for jobs. I sent them both thank you letters, and I added a sample of my work to the first person I interviewed with. I really want that job, and I hope that they will call me in for a second interview.

I have to admit that I'm scared. Winter is just around the corner, and I'm not sure how I will heat my house. You cannot live without heat in my state, because it can get so cold that your pipes will burst.

My mother and I continue to pray in agreement. Praise the Lord...God will provide.

Being Honest With God

Lately, I've been pretty upset with God. My mother and I have been praying in agreeance for a few months now, but we have not received answers to our major prayers.

Times are so scary for us right now. We have to worry about heating our home this winter. We have to worry about paying our monthly mortgage. We don't have jobs and no prospects. What are we going to do?

I love my time with God. I let Him know how I feel. I've been claiming Matthew 18:19-20. I believe that the most powerful prayer you can do is pray with someone and agree in prayer. God doesn't put a but or an if in these verses. He states, "Again, I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything you ask for, it will be done for you by my Father in heaven. 20For where two or three come together in my name, there am I with them." He says anything you ask for and it will be done for you by Him.

Well, my mother and I have certain requests that we have written down. We have not received the answers we expected. I know that God doesn't always answer our prayers they way we expect. I was prepared for this...or so I thought I was prepared.

I've been honest with God. I told Him that I thought the He would've answered at least one of our major prayers. I let Him know that I was scared. I also let Him know that I was disappointed. I told Him that we are going by faith, and holding Him to His promise of Matthew 18:19-20. Do you know what else I told Him? I let Him know that I truly believed that He was going to answer our prayers.

I do believe that God is going to work amazing things in my life. I just have that voice in my head going on and on that things are not going to work out. I will keep you posted about God's blessings in my life.

I sought the Lord, and he answered me, and delivered me from all my fears. (Psalm 34:4)

Trust in the Lord and do good; so you will live in the land, and enjoy security. Take delight in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him, and he will act. Be still before the Lord, and wait patiently for him. (Psalm 37:3-5, 7a)